Please do not be under the impression that you can end your life whenever you want. You have a duty to perform in this world and that is why you are here and until you complete all your assignments given to you by God, you will not be able to leave this world. Read my articles on Astrology on my blog navagrahastro.blogspot.in and you will be wiser and such ill thoughts will not bother you.
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