We cannot do anything about our future. We have to face it as it is. Wait till 2019 and let us see what happens then. If nothing turns out good, you just have to endure life as it is. Even you cannot commit suicide if destiny is otherwise willing. Sydney Sheldon tried to commit suicide five times in his life, but he did not succeed and lived up to a ripe age of 83 or more.
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