Helping for what. To commit suicide?!!, perhaps you can go to Osmansagar and jump into it so that you can have some water to drink before drowning.
Your description of yourselves totally mismatches with your thoughts. Yes Rahu and Kethu are the worst planets in your horoscope with a feeble residential strength. Rahu dasa will be over by 2017 Oct and if you are serious about your thoughts, you should not waste any more time.
Suppose you manage to live till 2017, then the following Jupiter Dasa will be excellent for you and you will win over everything you have lost. Read my blog navagrahastro.blogspot.in to get some insight into astrology.