OP,
Presence of Saturn/Shani-dev alongside Udaya Lagna or Ascendent is an indication of life being a bit of a grind. The close conjunct of Saturn/Shani and Jupiter/Guru-dev is a potential indication of your susceptibility to Evil Eyes, Black Magic and Envy… in other words negative energy. It is also an indication of atrocities on innocent/feeble lives in the past life (Gou-Hathya and/or Brahmana-Hatya Dosha) Thereafter, Moon/Chandra being adrift in the middle of nowhere, with very no support on either side of the flanks is an indication of you being a lonesome person with very few friends and limited social life… not to mention your mind often running wild with imagination and limited focus. Lagna Lord and current Maha-Dasha lord Mercury/Budha is strongly placed in his Swasthana… and posited in the Lunar Constellation of Ardra Nakshatra, ruled by Rahu is an indication of possible misuse of God given intelligence. Mutual aspect of Saturn/Shani-dev and Mars/Kuja is an indication of inherent anger/temper issues.
Further, please be informed you have been experiencing the peak effects of Sade-Sathi or Saturn/Shani-dev’s transit across natal placement of Moon/Chandra.
Take care…