Hi,
There are inherent afflictions in your birth-chart, not to mention the current and upcomming planetary transits (including Sade-Sathi or Staturn/Shani-dev’s transit across natal placement of Moon/Chandra) contributing to the stated situation.
The delay is desire fulfillment is obvious. Thankfully though, I’m inclined to think it is not a case of complete denial – unless off course you and well-wishers give up. It would perhaps make sense for you to get your priorities sorted out, work on controlling your anger issues and then for you guys (including family and other well-wishers) to be a bit flexible and consider all reasonable options – including unconventional alliances/options.
On the sidelines (after Antara of Ashtama-Chandra in May 2023) I’m inclined to think your mind/mental condition is much better. In any case, it would make sense for you to consider practicing Meditation, Yogasana and Pranayama on a regular/daily basis.
Take care..