Respected Sir,
It is a most painful and wretched life that I am leading. I am given to understand that I also have that dreaded Kemdrum Yog in my horoscope, it is wrecking havoc in my life. I wish I could know what bad karmas I have committed in my past lives to suffer like this in my present life? I wish I had the power to peer into my past lives.
Sir, please do not mind, but though I know a lady presently, my equations with her are as good as non-existent – I mean to say that I do not see absolutely any way as to how I would get married with her. The possibility of a new woman suddenly entering into my life, culminating in marriage by the end of this year is not something I would like to hedge my bets on.
However, from the description that you have given about this marriage, it seems to me that it will be yet another painful episode of my life in matters regarding romance. I am a sensitive kind of person, and such experiences are deeply painful, it hurts my chest. At this rate, I would simply want to avoid getting into a marriage – it is even more painful for my heart than dealing with loneliness.
All this slavery to the Moh-Maya, the desire for love & affection, makes my life utterly miserable since I do not get anything in the end. It keeps reminding me of Karna’s painful life in the Mahabharat. Seeing the happy romantic lives of others makes me feel frustrated, as well as feel irritated on myself. I feel like it would be better to become a Brahmacharya and seriously pursue the path of spirituality through deep meditative practices. But Moh-maya, or my indolence, stops me from doing that as well.
Still, I will have to do something about my life.
Kindly accept my deep regards for taking out your time to look into my horoscope.
Warm Regards,
Anil Kumar