Hi,
You seem to be in the midst of Saturn/Shani-dev’s Maha-Dasha and Antara of Venus/Shukra – not the best of times, specially so, since Saturn/Shani-dev has low Shadbala. Given that you are already close to 20 years of age and hence, I foresee challenges, delays and fulfillment of desires in the immediate short or near term. Upcoming Antara of Sun/Ravi (has below par Vimsopaka Bala in Dasha Varga) will also be challenging.
Thereafter, Antara of Moon/Chandra (starting May 2027) who is conjunct Saturn/Shani-dev creating a decent Raja Yoga will perhaps be beneficial, for a few months. Thereafter, Saturn/Shani-dev’s transit across natal placement of Moon/Chandra will probably give unwanted stress/tension etc.
Given the overall situation, I am being a bit skeptical of your desire fulfilling. If you are truly interested, it would make sense for you to channel your anger in the right direction, work a lot more harder and be focused in pursuit of your goals.
Take care…